(that album and band will always have a special place in my heart)


Sorry again that I have been absent for so long. The past two years have been hectic...and stifling. I had lost my creativity and passion, but I'm slowly getting it back. Sorry about large amount of favs...and small amount of comments. I'm often left speechless by all your works, and I'd rather fav and appreciate the piece in silence...then say "It's pretty" or "I love this" and have it be the end of it. I normally like to say why I love it or why I think it's gorgeous. But sometimes there are really too many things to mention, and I'm too distracted by my jaw dropping to really say anything of value.


But still, I've looked at all the deviations...well almost all. Still working on getting through all of them. Thank you for all the favs and comments/thank yous. I really do appreciate it.


As for what I've been up to:


Taking loads of pictures


Going to Maine for my cousin's wedding- I was eaten alive, ONLY my knees were sunburned, and I took over 2000 pictures in 4 days (it would have been more... if I had another memory card)


Finished my first year of College. I'm a little surprised I survived. I am currently repeating the cycle of loans and trying to find an apartment to last me the year. I'm heading up to Boston later...today (it is in the AM after all) to go see another apartment.


Apartment hunting should be it's own separate line...with all the difficulties and disappointments I've had in the past 2 months. Being an undergrad AND 19 makes getting an apartment in Boston so much harder. Anyway 2 close calls, numerous unanswered emails, tons of rejections (do you know how hard that is too swallow...when you're rejected in a TEXT MESSAGE after you JUST called and left a message with the realtor to say you need an application), wasted trips to Boston because of said rejections...getting to know the Train schedule pretty damn well....You get the idea

Warped Tour....I ended up going alone even though a friend was originally going to go with me. Was still fucking awesome even though I almost suffocated a couple of times. Damn Crowd surfers who don't understand that the crowd is made up of really short girls who've never dealed with crowd surfing before...and have no upper body strength (and that the crowd surfers are taller and heavier than said girls. I had to save so many) Bah! Oh well. I'm pleasantly sore (I know, I'm weird) and I loved all the bands I saw/heard. Of course the ringing in my ears hasn't stopped yet. I'm hoping they do soon.

Anyway, I'll hopefully finish catching up with all your devs, comments and journals. And maybe I'll post some pictures. I've become very insecure about them...and the more awesome photos I see (done by other people), the more I just want to give up. But I'm stubborn and I refuse. I shall simply have to get better. Although with all the problems and stress I've been going through...like I said my creativity has run dry and I'm only just starting to get it back.

And for those who know what Sing the Sorrow is and who it's by...A) You're awesome and B) I put it as the subject because I listened to it a lot when I just wanted to escape from all my problems, and whenever I listened to it, I felt content...I wasn't alone anymore. When I went to Warped Tour, I might have gone alone, but I didn't feel that way. I was truly happy and content. I haven't felt like that in a long time.


So thank you music/band members/staff/security/fans for being there when I needed you most.

P.S. Not feeling neglected... but the emoticon won't change for me. Apparently it still feels neglected and for that I am sorry. I shall have to pay more attention to it.

I haven't listened to the song in ages but I have the chorus stuck in my head all of a sudden...Oh right I was saying something to that effect in my head. I'm currently in a "lecture". However, it's a joke so I never pay attention. It's the book verbatum so why listen? Although I need to get my ass going on the whole "reading the book" issue.I've added a couple or more deviations. I have others I want to upload, but they are trapped in a memory card that won't fit in any slot on my laptop...and my computer and camera got into a fight, and now my computer refuses to acknowledge my camera's USB cord. The camera also refuses to acknowledge that there is a connection (usb cord) between them and thus progress is halted. They really need to resolve their differences now before I hurt them both.I did a mini interview for a friend's media project today. Her idea for the film was that a person's shoes has as much character as their owners. They have their own lives. I hadn't brought me shoes with me, so I used the ones I was (and still am) wearing. One of her questions through me through a loop though "What would you name your shoes?" my reply.. "Altogether or individually" "Individually" "ummm *stares at shoes* ...Gretchen and Helga. Strong awesome and German?" (I actually don't know if Gretchen and helga are of german origin....I get a sneaking suspicion not...oh well)  SO now my shoes are to be refered to as Gretchen and Helga. Gretchen is the left shoe and Helga is the right.I've also got my scanner online, so I might have some random drawings/sketches for y'all. Who knows! Maybe my camera and computer can electronically kiss and make up after a month and a half of fighting with each other. One can only hope!I hope you all are doing well! Sorry for my absence!!! Oh and even though I may not have commented...I have seen many MANY!!! of y'alls deviations so no worries (many of them left me speechless)

Going through gallery and scraps...editing contrast, colors and size of images. Some may be moved to scraps. Others will be deleted.

I'm tired. I'm weary. I'm redundant.
I don't feel like myself. With the help of a couple of friends, I've decided to move away from a situation that has crippled my self-confidence and over-all happiness for too long now...whether you notice the changes or not, that's fine. They are there, and at least, I know that they are there. These changes are for me so....not much else to say except that I hope that you all are happier than I am right now. <3

Love,
Autumn

IT FEELS GOOD TO BE HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
...even if it is just for a day and a half. For most of the time, I am miserable in Boston. My only joys come from silly people in my speech and research writing class and most of all, Molly...the friend I'm temporarily living with. My moods are normally low....this cityscape and environment actually has me at an almost all creative low. I am a nature girl. My grandfather always joked that I was a country bumpkin.....I'm starting to think he's right. I couldn't even get in a mood for Halloween...and I LOVE HALLOWEEN!!! Not even visiting Salem could perk my me up. I just miss the smell of leaves, and having the wind in my hair (it gets windy on my hill at home)...I miss smelling snow in the air...I'm sure I wouldn't be able to if it did here. It's all city smells...bleh! I lvoe visiting the city...but I like walking through the woods much more. I don't get to laugh as often as I would like...and I'm normally on my own until I go back to the house where Molly is.

Apartment Search has been HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL LLLL! I first started searching on my own....and then I had a realtor....and then he passed me off to someone else (subtley I might add,...but not enough) and then this girl passed me off to someone else. And this last person, Sharon has done the most for me. ANd I THINKKKKKKK I have found a place and a room mate...I just need one more and show them the place so we can all place our applications.

Anyway, Being home has made me feel scores better. I got to see a long time friend yesterday and he helped me download an editing program...so i can actually CROP! photos and do what I want to them. So if my actual subjects are lacking...I can at least use them to practice on. Practice makes perfect, yes?

Oh! and I'm starting to catch up on all the devs, favs, watches and journals I have ..so if you see waves of favs and comments on all journals...that would be me catching up. So if you were sick, I hope you are feeling better. Feeling good? Hope that feeling is still there! If you hurt a limb, I hope it's healed!!!

Love ya'll!!

P.S. I'm bubbling with energy right now....and I was a goof and forgot my camera in Boston...gah!! so I'm putting all my energy into commenting, catching up..photoediting overall being creative....I really haven't felt this good in so long. It's a relief. Oh! and my other grandmother had a 35mm that she isn' using anymore..so instead of borrowing my grandfather's all the time (he gets annoyed with my around holidays ) so she is having it cleaned for me...and i'll have my own film camera along with my digital...AGAIN I"M EXCITED....I'm pretty sure I'm going to explode....
Oh and I saw this ...so to occupy myself, I did it^^
NAME: Autumn
BIRTHDAY: July 10th
BIRTHPLACE: Connecticut...in a New Haven Hospital
CURRENT LOCATION: Boston
EYE COLOUR: Blue but sometimes green depending on lighting and what I'm wearing (it's fun)
HAIR COLOUR: Dirty Blonde (but I love wearing wigs...so it changes)
HEIGHT: fairly tall...about 5' 7"
L/R HANDED: Right
THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: Socks so far....soon to be black sneakers
YOUR WEAKNESS: people who make me laugh or smile
GOAL TO ACHIEVE THIS YEAR: Survive

YOUR PERFECT PIZZA: Cheese, but I'm starting to experiment
YOUR BEDTIME: I'm turning into a Night owl....with morning classes ><
YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: when I could get a best friend by merely saying "Do you like Broccoli/ do you like pizza...by the by, we're still really good friends
YOUR MOST OVERUSED PHRASE ON AN INSTANT MESSANGER: haha
PEPSI OR COKE: Coke advocate...but if I have no alternative...Sprite or Pepsi
McDONALDS OR BURGERKING: last time I ate at MD...I got sick...so neither now ><
SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Group or single. I really don't mind^^
LIPTON ICE TEA OR NESTEA: Nestea if it's fast....Lipton if I have leisure time
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate Chip (vanilla too plain...chocolate too much of one thing)
CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: Tea

DO YOU SMOKE: Nope, but I've had enough people around me smoke...so I will probably get lung cancer from all the second hand smoke
DO YOU SWEAR: yes
DO YOU SING: yes, if not in a group of friends, than alone
DO YOU SHOWER DAILY: Yes (I sing in the shower constantly)

HAVE YOU BEEN IN LOVE: Yep
DO YOU WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: Want to go...I'm already in it
DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED: I doubt I'll find another someone
DO YOU BELIVE IN YOURSELF: Comes and goes...but I'm feeling pretty good right now
DO YOU GET MOTION SICKNESS: No, actually I can read in a car and still not get sick.
ARE YOU A HEALTH FREAK: no
DO YOU LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: I love the rain
DO YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: some minor things on the piano....and my clarinet hates me : ( So I gave it to my cousin...

In the past month have you

1. DRUNK ALCHOHOL: no
2. SMOKED: no
3. BEEN ON DRUGS: no
4. GONE TO A MALL: no actually....but I have been to a barnes and noble (I love bookstores)
5. EATEN A BOX OF OREOS: No
6. EATEN SUSHI: no...don't like raw fish
7. BEEN ON STAGE: yes^^ I visited my techie friends the other day
8. BEEN DUMPED: yes

DO YOU WORK: I'm in college....duh

IN A BOY/GIRL:

FAVORITE EYE COLOUR: not really an issue, but I love dark hair
FAVORITE HAIR COLOUR: again not an issue...but light eyes (my ex actually had the opposite...Light hair and dark eyes)
SHORT OR LONG HAIR: I like it in between...not too short because I like to play with it
WEIGHT: Healthy, I suppose
BEST CLOTHING STYLE: If I see you wearing pink.....especially hot pink...I'm sorry. Until I see you in another color...your chances have been dashed (you're welcome to try and prove me wrong but...No)

NUMBER OF CDS I OWN: close a hundred or so
NUMBER OF PIERCINGS: I just got my ears pierced this August actually.
NUMBER OF TATTOOS: none
THINGS IN MY PAST I REGRET: I wish I could say I didn't...but I do.

That's where I am. I'm going to Emerson College in Boston....however, they're bitches. I lost my housing because of a technicality in my account. (A loan certification wasn't sent to them by the first of August (pending loans are fun!) and thus my account wasn't paid in full) SO Now I am in Boston...without a place to live. I'm currently staying with a friend until I find an apartment/room mates I can call my own. I just got here today actually and it's a pretty jarring experience. I have until the 10th (classes start).
Sorry about not being around. I've been a bit of a slacker and a traveler at the same time. But i'm going to catch up with all the journals and deviations. I hope you all are well!!! NOw I need to rest up to go apartment hunting tomorrow. NIght!